Discontent

Do you ever find yourself discontent? Dissatisfied? Wanting more than what you already have?

Me too. And not always in a ‘holy’ sort of way.

You see, I’ve been looking into food processors. I found one that I really like on Overstock.com and have just been waiting until the ‘right time’ to buy it. However, that was when our garden was doing great and I had zucchini coming out my ears! Now that the garden has been scorched by the hot Georgia sun, it seems less important and much less of a ‘need’ and more of a want.I wasn’t content using my super awesome Emerill knife (it was a gift!) and instead thought I truly needed this piece of fabulous machinery. And, let’s be honest here, I’m a kitchen gadget girl so…. if it seems like it will make life easier and I can have some fun, I’m probably going to want it at some point!

Cute, isn’t it?!

  I had all these plans of making hummus and pesto, shredding and slicing pounds of garden vegetables to put away and making the best cookies ever! Now that I don’t have one it seems pretty silly to go and spend that kind of money on one! I have a great knife, a fabulous mixer, and a hand grater. Use a little muscle and the job can get done with those tools that I already have.

Then, I got to thinking today (big surprise, I know!) where does all this discontentment come from? Is it that I am so busy comparing myself to others? Do I think that this, this, and that, will fulfill that something in me? Do I play the “If I only ________” game with myself, thinking that stuff will make me happy and content?

Don’t get me wrong here. There is nothing wrong with stuff. However, it’s just that. Stuff. Stuff doesn’t make us happy.

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
For they shall be filled.” Matthew 5.6

The irony of all of this to me is, I find myself in that ‘poor me’ mode when it comes to my stuff, but do I ever have holy discontentment? Am I satisfied and happy with where I am in my relationship with Christ? Am I seeking after more of the Word of God? Am I hungry and thirsty for righteousness? Or does my Christian devotional ‘satisfy’ my appetite?

The other funny part to me is I keep thinking “I’m either in the Word or in the World“. I want to be saturating myself in the Word. You know how it gets when you feel like you are in a dry land. You’ve tasted and seen that the Lord is good. You know what it’s like to be in His presence! And somewhere along the journey, you’ve lost your way. I don’t need ‘revival’ to get back to that place. I need to get back to the place and then I will have revival, renewing and refreshing!

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I’ve  been getting myself up early to workout in the mornings. I make sure I have time to get into the Word before the children wake up. Yet, I find myself giving half an effort. I’m not really pouring over God’s word. And I’m tired of it! I’ve had it! This morning I told God if I had to get up earlier to truly seek Him and not just ‘read my chapter’ and be done, than that is what I will do. Not only that, but my day goes so much better when I spend time in prayer and spend real time in the Word. So often we say we don’t have time, but we make time for other things that are of much less importance than our relationship with Christ. So, I’m through with it. Who’s with me? Are you ready to discipline  yourself so that you may really know God, know his Word, and apply it to your life? I am! Join me, won’t you?!

Blessings,